Waiting for my epiphany

In this insane world, sometimes lost in the chaos helps me to introspect myself and find retribution and peace. As ironic as it sounds, I believe everyone goes through it once in their lifetime. Clueless and helpless, man can defeat himself with his weak mind or evolve into a better man. Today I myself find in a similar juncture in life. Similar because very too often I think have been intentionally putting myself down into this situation time after time. While happiness is only one 'step' away, I find myself hard to take that step. I am too comfortable in this lonely and sticky situation. Great things happened not only because great men did those things but first they had to choose to do it. Choices we take is what sets us apart. The other sad truth is a man who is too afraid to choose is too afraid to live. Those are the ones who lose in the race. It doesn’t matter if the choice is right or wrong. If I have learnt one thing in life it is that there is no right or wrong, there is only a choice A which leads to path A and a choice B which leads to path B. If you want to live you have to choose. A or B.

That feeling....

I had my face held up with my eyes closed. I was feeling each drop of water hitting my skin and absorbing its force onto me. Drops of water on my face became streams flowing through the troughs of every part of my body. I was completely drenched with water but I feel as if there are more parts in me that had to be drenched. So I stay still. I stand on the edge of the roof of a 35 storey office building where I had been working for the past three year. Even though I face death in its face, this rain keeps me calm. It always has. Since when I was a little kid, I used to come back home from school drenched with water whenever there was a rain. It is not that I was immune to its coldness. I always got sick every monsoon. It was a tradition at my home when I was in school. My mother would shout at me each time. I guess it is not such a smart thing to do. But every time when I was bedridden for weeks due to this, I always had a sly smile inside my mind feeling that I did something amazing. Thinking about that right now, brings back that sly smile back in my mind. I never understood everyone's disgusted feeling whenever heavy rain begins marking the start of monsoon. It maybe due to their thoughts of the muddy puddles everywhere afterwards or the flooded roads. Whatever it might have been, I haven't even cared to know since I was madly in love with this rain. It was a very long time since I had made love with the rain like this. Three years to be exact. The rain was kissing me all over my body with each of its drops. It was good to have this feeling back. I knew this was the last time I could feel like this. Because I am going to kill myself in a few minutes. That sly smile from inside my mind came out.

Another peace of my shit

Disclaimer
This peace of my shit is just a work of fiction. There isn’t any resemblance to any facts or any living or dead people. If you find any resemblance to any living or dead maybe it’s because you are Mfucking moron.


This story happens a very long time ago. Even before you and I were born. Even before our parents or our forefathers were born. It is a very long time ok...
Anyway at this time of the era there was no civilisation.
So two guys were sitting around making dirty jokes and happily eating their fruits from trees. (Let me say more specifically that this fruit was apples. Ahem.)
Anyways then one of the guys asks “Hey dude how did we get here?”
“Where?”
“I mean here dude. In this jungle. In this bloody goddamn place wherever that is.”
“Well I guess we were born here right?”
“Yeah but how did our parents and all get here?”
Let me tell something about this first dude. He is an asshole; he asks too many questions anyway. And the second dude ... well he is just here to play dumb.
“Dude I don’t know. You know right who you gotta ask when you got questions.”
“Yeah alright.”
Well this third person is the one who knows everything about everyone. (I am saying person ‘cause I am not sure if it is a man or woman. And so I am just going to refer him/her as ‘person’.) So the person knows everything going around well ‘cause the person just happens to know everything.
As usual the person was carving pictures of himself when these two guys reach there. Anyways the dude walks up to him and interrupts him.
The dude asks “Hey I gotta question u know.”
“What sup dudes?”
“Do you know how we got here? In this place whereve... “
“...ever goddamn place we are, right? Well we guys were born here.”
“I mean how the hell did we humans start existing in the first place??!!”
At first the person got angry. But then the person got annoyed. The person did not know the answer. The person just walked off into his cave. The person thought about it long and long enough. After a certain amount of time, the person came out with answers and a big smile. (I don’t know how long ‘cause I wasn’t there you nimwits!)
The dude runs up to the person and asks “Do u have my answer?” The person smiled.
“So how did we get here?”
“We got here the same way how every other living thing came here. The birds. The trees. The monkeys. Another being created us all and put us here.”
“Really who is he? What is his name?”
“His name is GOD. He doesn’t live here amongst us. He lives outside of this world that we live in. He created everything around us.”
“Oh. Why did he do that?”
“He created us to serve him. And he created everything else for us to live and enjoy.”
The dude was happy now he knew how he came here and why he had to be here. He had his answers. He went to eat some more apples.
The person got back into the cave and gave out a loud sigh of relief. “Wow. I didn’t think he would buy that. Anyway that is that and that will keep his mouth shut.”
But the very next day, the dude comes back to the person, with more people and even more questions.
“How did he create us?” asked one. The person looked at himself and others. Brown. And he looked around he said “He made us from soil.” He pointed out.
And the questions began coming and coming until every one of their questions were answered. So goes the legend of GOD.....


Authors note
For the benefit of the readers:
Just to let the readers know that the author is not an atheist but is a god believer. This peace of my shit is for the reader who wants to be an atheist. Or who just wants to know the fucking truth.
*The author has used apple specifically as the fruit ‘cause every stupid goddamn popular story begins with it. Be it apples falling on top of a head or apples which cannot be eatten.

A peace of my shit

When I was a kid everybody told that there is an invisible man up in the sky who looked over us and he would give me anything that I pray to him because he loves me. Everybody said his name is GOD. I said wow. Then came Christmas. Everybody said there is a man who lives in North Pole. And he will give me gifts if I have been a good kid. Everybody said his name was Santa Claus. I said wow. Then a carnival came to my town. Every one took me there and I saw a man who had a hat from which he pulled out a rabbit, a dove or anything else he wanted to. He could do anything what he wanted. Everybody said that is Magic. I said wow. Then one day I broke my tooth. Everybody said that I should put my broken tooth under my pillow and wish something. And my wish would come true. Everybody said the Tooth fairy will come and grant my wish. I said again wow. When I was small, I believed everything what everybody said to me. I was a nice kid and they did not give me any reasons not to believe. So I Believed.

But then after sometime I grew up. Everybody said to me that there is nothing called Magic and that it was all tricks and mind games. I was sad. Then everybody said to me there is no such thing as a Tooth fairy. I was really sad. Then Christmas came again, everybody said Santa Claus does not exist. I was devastated. But then years passed, no one said anything about GOD. Everybody said he does exist even though nobody can see him like Santa Claus or the Tooth fairy. I said “Really?”. I was happy. Even though now they gave so many reasons not to believe them, I believed them because I was happy. So I started Believing.